Weird

....sometimes I just have to remember to be happy. I'm sitting here, getting all intense, looking at my schedule, getting ready for work, doing my morning chanting..........
And all of a sudden it's like, "oh yeah. I'm happy!". And I smile and laugh out loud.
Wonder when I built the habit of solemnity or even mild melancholy. I prefer the habit of joy. Gonna keep teaching myself that one!

sarah

"Automatic" Responses

was writing a check the other day and suddenly watched my hand writing and thought how well trained I am - thought of a word becomes the word on paper with very little conscious awareness of how my hand forms the letters. Unless I want to write upside down or in another language or something.
Our responses to life are usually like that I think. Formed out of habit, according to our training. When we are learning to change those automatic responses, it requires a great deal of effort. Until we learn the new pattern. Then we are able to spontaneously respond with appreciation and joy where before we might have gone straight to fear and sadness. Or whatever.

sarah