Let go

I went to sleep feeling heavy and so earth bound. And responsible. It is partly good. But I miss being light and sparkly and like a butterfly. I went through a time past of feeling special and being so aware of my own energy and that of others. Now I am holding all the parts of my life so tightly, I just realized. Like in kindergarten when my classmates killed our hamsters by holding onto them too tightly.
I woke with two words in my mind: let go. When I trust, and release my death grip on all the pieces of my life, they don't all disappear. I am not in a circle where the forces fling everything away from me. The forces hold all that is best for me in tight.
Let go. Trust.

PS - for me, this works. Letting go allows me to enjoy all my life is full of. My afternoon after the "let go" nap was light and loving.
sarah

My awakening

It began years ago with my understanding that the kingdom of heaven is at hand. God is now here , in us and among us. God IS us.
Buddhism expresses it like this: this place where we dwell now is the pure land of eagle peak. Realizing buddhahood in our present form, in this lifetime, in our saha world.

Joseph campbell said: "This is it. This is it. This is it."

Some years back I named myself ranee light kali. Queen of light and dark. Joining of enlightenment and ignorance. Sun and shadow.
Sarah is the princess. Now I awaken into my maturity.

all is one and not one. No duality.
I used to chant a mantra: All is god. God is all. I and god are one.

Ni ni fu ni. Two and not two. Without distinction.

Being awake is simple and hard.

At once.

This is my truth.

sarah