hello again

can i be awake to what is and also lean into what might be?

as i join the dance and the stillness, as i know the presence of sun amidst storm and the value of both, as i put on my boots to climb the mountains and still take time to savor the grassy meadow —— 

may i begin to change my habitual responses as i choose this or that or the third thing. 

the third way — using the elements at hand to create energy useful in the current situation. 

neither grasping nor pushing away. this is it.  this is it.  this is it.  

curiosity

 i woke today with weird dreams filling my mind, and with a vague sense of dread.  

then i remembered my commitment in 2021 to wonder, curiosity and wow!  

my inner sky began to brighten, as i wondered what today will bring. i can listen, and begin to understand my own thoughts and those of others. i can respond with wow! instead of with oh no! or oops!

sometimes i will do this, and sometimes i will not.  and i can wonder about that too.

join me in this adventure?  

together we will smile.

a year of healing — me

this is the year of healing  me, and of holding myself with warmth, like a daughter returning home. 

i learned from my family that i can, and should, be peace. i felt responsible to keep the boat from rocking. chaos, rage or any deep emotion hurts and needs to be contained. 

i no longer choose to live that learning. 

i see differently.  the fire and chaos of the volcano birth a new mountain.  i lean in, without aversion and without grasping.  i allow, and use, the generativity of what i feel  

this year i hold and heal me.  in community with those i love, and with those i don’t like so much as well.  together in healing and the slow quiet growth that comes in its season.