The goodbye in the hello

Written 9/19/11

Today again I felt the pain of losing my dream of a "perfect" family. Felt appreciation for that same family for their responses as I took steps towards change. I have always said I would choose the pill that let me see, that I would choose to vibrate to the next level even though it meant a leavetaking. To wake up I had to take action that felt like amputating a part of myself. I stepped towards life. I will keep on that path even in the midst of pain. I felt my heart/mind transform today, again. I miss what was before. And I know the goodbye was necessary. For me and for the others as well. And I have to keep on, to work hard and with determination and dedication, so the sacrifice won't be in vain.
Part of each joy is the sorrow of what was given up or set aside to develop the space to receive the gift, the vision to see what is, and the compassionate wisdom to share the awakening.
Namaste.
sarah